Last night my "boyfriend" as in the man who claims to love me, we had a huge fight. He said awful directly dirty things about me physically, not just my weight but Things I have no control over. He said I was less than a person than he was and being with me was him constantly settling for less than he deserves. Honestly, I can't decide if he feels that way in his soul or if he is projecting his insecurity. But I felt like I lost control and I self-harmed for the first time in almost 8 years. Light superficial cuts. But I don't know how to really keep myself from having these deep urges to cut myself. I've been thinking about them for months and months.
Is my relationship really as unhealthy as I feel like it is.