I'm so frustrated. I think he's hanging out with another girl because he's not getting back in touch with me - and if he's hanging out with another girl at 4am he's probably sleeping with another girl. We haven't even had an exclusive conversation so I really would have no place to be upset with anyone but myself for getting involved with him again.
I just don't want to do "this" anymore, I don't know how to stop it because I love him and I want him in my life...and yet I am letting him be in my life without getting anything I need or want from him. I don't understand why it's so hard for me to break the cycle that is Robin...he doesn't want to be with me. Regardless of if I am able to solve the issues we have with my communication styles - or lack there of...I feel like he does not want to be with me. Unwilling to commit yet unwilling to let me go completely. It's as though I am so important that I am not important at all. If that makes any sense at all.